Monday, November 1, 2021

From shame to shocked

It's hard to believe I ever weighed almost 300 pounds. It's even harder to believe I felt I was stuck and would die fat, in constant pain, and unhappy. 

I'm so proud of myself for trying Thrive and committing myself to consistency.  

I'd love to help you find your happy-ending.
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Monday, October 4, 2021

What happened?

When I was at my worst possible moment, at my lowest point and writing about my experiences, I heard the following from fellow writers:

"Focus on the good in your life. Try to write about happy things once in a while."

The irony is; now that I've walked away from all of the awful emotional baggage in my life and have stopped writing about negative, depressing memories, I'm hearing:

"She's betrayed her art. She's forgotten who she is and her direction in life."

---Here's the best part...opinions have yet to pay my bills. In fact, opinions have shown me who the TRUE writers are and funny enough, very few of them pay membership dues of any kind. They are the wandering wordsmiths of our time and live their truth. They've earned their right to call themselves spoken-word artists. And they respect each and every person for their differing seasons. See, that's what being an artist is...it's seeing each individual as a changing season and embracing each season as it slowly comes. 

No matter what you do, how you change, who you try to help...someone, somewhere will always be offended by what you do or say. So, just be you, do what's best for you and your mental and emotional well-being. If you want to help someone, do it because you want to feel good in your heart, not because you feel it will benefit you in some way financially, or gain you accolades socially. Do it because it's the right thing to do. 

What happened to me?
I stopped being sad.



Friday, October 1, 2021

Soul Fire

Your goals, your dreams are 100% YOUR responsibility. 

If you don’t reach them it’s not because someone got in your way…it’s because you didn’t want it bad enough.
What is your dream worth?
If it doesn’t shake you to your very core to see yourself walking into your ideal moment…your not ready to scream your worth into the universe.
Do whatever you have to do to light your damn soul on fire and RUN towards your dream.
Stop bitching about not being where you want to be.
Stop standing in your own way.
Shut up.
Show up.
Transform yourself. 

 

 

Thursday, September 30, 2021

Hope is a Powerful Thing

March 2nd, 2020, I slipped and fell on our back deck and couldn't get up. I had to yell for help and wait, laying on the ice, scared, until my husband heard me and came running out to lift me up and help me inside. At 49 years old, I couldn't stand my own body weight back up. I was in the absolute worst health of my life.
But what most people didn't know is that I had tried everything, and even invented a few things but it felt so hopeless. Health challenges continued to bury me in aches and discomfort. I just wanted SOMETHING to give. I needed SOMETHING to give. Otherwise, I was looking at a continuation of my life at that moment…and the thought of that left me feeling so defeated. I started Thrive as a last-ditch effort to get healthy. I didn’t want a miracle; I just wanted something to look forward to each day. The moment I understood Thrive was changing my body…calming my mental and emotional stress, helping with aches and discomforts, and supporting appetite control, it was like a switch was flipped inside. I went from hopeless to hopeful. There was hope for tomorrow. And the day after, and the day after that and the next one. I had hope for my future, my husband would have me, my kids would have their mom, I might actually get to meet my future grand-babies. Hope. And hope is a powerful thing.
I walked away from my sadness. I walked away from my insecurities. I walked away from my self-doubt. And found the power to run after everything I want for myself. Because of hope. And yes, I was getting healthier because of Thrive. So, of course I’m going to wear my DFT proud. Of course, I’m going to offer samples and ask people around me if they are ready to try it yet. Because I want others to experience this same sense of wonder and hope.
There's that word again.
Hope.



 

Wednesday, September 22, 2021

Surviving?

Not so long ago I couldn't walk through stores without my knees aching and my back absolutely screaming. I would lay down to sleep and try not to cry from the shame of being a woman in her mid-40's, weighing almost 300 pounds, and so out of shape I couldn't walk for more than 15 minutes without having to stop and rest. Having my child give me a Mother's Day drawing where they pointed out that they "painted me skinny" still didn't push me to act. I still didn't see the horror of that statement.
I do now.
"You don't have to be thin to be happy. Love yourself as you are."
Yes, that's true! But when the YOU you are is so large and out of shape you can't manage to function without struggling, then you need to do something. "Healthy" and "skinny" are two totally different terms. There are "healthy" large people, and there are "unhealthy" skinny people. The difference between the two photos on the left and the two photos on the right? I realized it was time to take steps to get healthy. Not skinny. HEALTHY.
Because of vitamins. That's all I've added to my morning. I now have a gut that acts like it's supposed to...digesting food with ease, bowels moving as they should. I am energetic throughout the day and able to focus on work, having clarity of thought and mood support through the day. I am aging backwards, looking younger, feeling younger and sexier now than I did at 30. It sounds so silly to say it but it really is because of just vitamins.
Crazy.



 

Three simple steps...


I guess I never saw myself as "large" or "obese" but I knew I was uncomfortable all of the time. I knew I hated shopping for clothes. I knew I was ashamed of my body. At my heaviest I weighed almost 300 pounds. I tried flying once. ONCE. But it was so painful on my hips and legs, I made every excuse to not fly ever again because of the humiliation. Seeing the looks on the faces of the people who sat next to me. Never again.
 

Now? I've lost over 50 pounds but more than that, I'm healthier than I've ever been. My gut works like it's supposed to for the first time ever! I get up in the morning and am still going, still energetic when it's time for bed...but I sleep better than I have in decades. All because of three simple steps every morning. That's all I added to my daily routine. It's amazing vitamins will do for you!!
 

From shame to shocked

It's hard to believe I ever weighed almost 300 pounds. It's even harder to believe I felt I was stuck and would die fat, in constant...